Book Title: Six Years With God: Life Inside Reverend Jim Jones' People's Temple
Author: Jeannie Mills
Genres: Nonfiction, Autobiography, Memoir.
Every time I tell someone about the six years we spent as members of the Peoples Temple, I am faced with an unanswerable question: “If the church was so bad, why did you and your family stay in for so long?” This book is my attempt to work out an answer…Only months after we defection from the Temple did we realize the full extent of the cocoon in which we lived. And only then did we understand and deplore the fraud, sadism, and emotional blackmail of the master manipulator. We’d been had by a dangerous maniac and we set out to warn a world that didn’t seem to have time or the compassion to listen. It took the deaths 912 persons to spark a series of investigations into the Peoples Temple. To look at Jeannie Mills, you wouldn't think that for six incredible years her life went haywire. At 39, she's both smart and attractive, a good wife to a good man, mother to five terrific kids...the picture of everything that's right-and possible-in America. But from 1970 to 1976, she and her entire family were bound to a cult that finally became the story of the decade -THE PEOPLES TEMPLE. In a chronicle that talks of beatings, humiliations, and brainwashings, the author records her six years as a member of the Peoples Temple and describes the awesome and sadistic power of Jim Jones.

My Thoughts
Jeannie Mills known within The Peoples Temple as Deanna Myrtle was a defector of the organisation, along with her husband and daughter who were murdered not long after this tell all book was published, was it the last revenge of Jim Jones from his followers that still held his words in the highest regard? Even after more than 900 people were murdered that fateful day on November 18, 1978 in Jonestown, Guyana? No-one knows. So what was exposed in this book that would possibly cause the murders of defectors, even after Jim Jones died?

It starts off as a book that details their lives after leaving The Peoples Temple, from September 1975 – 1978. For about 60 pages for someone like myself who has studied the organisation, the names weren’t unfamiliar to me but for someone who is just starting to understand, it might be a little confusing. The fact they had to change their names to make void the power of attorney they had given him but they didn’t lay low from Jones & the Temple because they were very outspoken with their own organisation the Concerned Relatives organization, to focus media, political and government pressure on Jones. They helped to deprogram ex-cultist and persuaded Congressman Leo Ryan to undertake the fact-finding mission to Guyana which led to the largest deaths of US citizens before 9/11 and led to Ryan’s death.

The start of the second half of the book explains how she and Al (formally known as Elmer) were raised, met, got married & their children from previous marriages ended up becoming one big blended family. Admittedly before joining Peoples Temple she had decidedly racist views which she was ashamed of and after the first visit to the multiracial church she decided that she was going to be pleasant to the black people.

This book chronicles how the financial operations of the temple operated, how they managed to keep people ‘trapped’ within the temple, a lot of members signed over their homes & pay cheques to the temple, they were left with nothing but this connection to the church and even the elderly would have to then work to keep homes the church provided them to live in. With both Jeannie & Al, her husband being within the trusted circle of Jim Jones, Jeannie worked with Temple's publications office while Al became the official photographer they saw a lot of things first hand such as the public humiliations within a service & meetings, they’d see people beat other members within an inch of their life, women humiliated and made to strip to their underwear in front of the congregation and I’d read all the contradictions, physical and sexual abuse that occurred and would initially think why don’t you leave? But then to understand is to understand the hold, mentally, physically and financially. Cults are not easy to escape and you can’t just decide to not return one day, they’d tried to leave on a few occasions and the temple would send people and they’d be lured right back.

With an interests in crime, murder and cults this was the first book I had read about People's Temple, I've read numerous articles and seen documentaries. I try seek out books from those who have lived & experienced. This book wasn't easy to get hold of, it's out of publication and can retail for up to $70 on second hand bookstores but I managed to get this about 3 years ago on the cheap.

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Six Years With God.

Illustration Anna Sudit

I always think feminine hygiene is an important topic. Most these things growing up I was taught by my grandmother and magazines, - Remember when magazines were actually good and not full of bullshit? Although some young women/older women never had that upbringing where they were able to talk openly or felt comfortable to ask someone. As an adult I can talk to girlfriends about things because sharing is caring & you’re sharing knowledge and with no two bodies being the same the same simple principles for a happy healthy vulva, labia, mons pubis and vagina apply. Yes, I used all of those words because, it’s about spreading correct pro body language. It's important to remember that our vaginas are a self-cleaning orifice. They don't require a lot of excessive cleaning because throwing off the vaginal pH balance of about 3.8 to 4.5 is just asking for trouble, you didn't expect to invite such as infections.

Illustration Lucy Han.
What’s what?
Your vulva is all the parts you can see outside of your body. Your vagina is inside of you. We can all be guilty of saying our vagina instead of using the correct terms but I do think to have a pro body mental attitude we need to be correct with the terms. Most times people say vagina and they mean their vulva.

Starting in the water!
They say water is all you need and honestly it is. If you do use soap it should be as natural as possible and unscented and never let it enter your vagina & urethra. Clean the vulva & both inner & outer labia carefully daily with cool water as warm water can help bacteria to . I do keep a bottle of natural feminine wash in the bathroom but I will only use that while I'm on my period instead of daily, I try not to use it if possible and some of the ones available in stores have harsh detergents and parabens, best to go natural. I've read that women have experienced UTI or yeast infections when washing daily using them because they make you more susceptible to these conditions. Some have even fallen victim of the bubble bath, so if you do feel there’s any dryness or irritation, don’t soak in a bubble bath! When you wash, you wash like you wipe from front to back. Washing or wiping in the opposite direction will cause bacteria from the anus to become trapped in the vagina & urethral opening, giving way to infections.

Some say that you should clean your hands before the toilet because your hands are dirty with daily bacteria on there & you could transfer the bacteria onto your skin when you wipe!

illustration Sarah Hurst
What you do with your pubic hair is your own business!
Nobody should tell you how you should keep your pubic hair, but the past 3 years I’ve gone between hair and less hair and back again but personally I feel more womanly with more hair, I keep it tidy underneath and the bikini line but keep the mound with hair. Having hair is practical because the hair traps any discharge and keeps bacteria off your skin, leading to less to no irritations. If you're like me and prefer to keep more of a trimmed 70s bush than a Brazilian I wouldn't say we've got to work any harder to keep clean because they do say hair helps to fight any irritation from discharge on the skin but as hair does trap sweat, it’s important to keep it just as fresh often.

Yes, there’s a smell.
I remember someone saying women weren’t so fussed about how their vagina’s smell since oral sex became more favoured – well I don’t know about those women but I’ve always cared about how I smell, not out of paranoia but because it’s important to take notice of these things, any change in smell is to be noted. We naturally have a slight scent there and it’s normal. Ladies, do not fret or make any man make you feel bad. Everyone's scent is a combination of loads of bacterias specific to your body but if you notice a foul/fishy/unpleasant change in odour from your vagina, that’s when you need to see your doctor.

Keeping it fresh during your period.
I've found since using the menstrual cup, odour is limited during my period & it’s a lot more freeing for myself but of course this isn't for everyone. Doesn't need to be said but I will still say while on don't leave pads or tampons on longer than you need too. The pads are damp and have natural organisms - such as sweat from the genitals - that have become contaminated with the menstrual blood, are sitting on the pad and they love warm and moist places, left for too long they’ll likely multiple leading to UTI, skin rashes and vaginal infections. While tampons left in can cause toxic shock syndrome, this is a condition where bacteria infiltrate the body, leading to a severe infection, the body can go into shock and needs sudden medical attention in some cases, it can lead to serious complications & even death. Please ladies, change regularly and if possible wash between changes to keep fresh.

Don’t dismiss the discharge
Don't worry about discharge as this is normal, seeing a change can be more hormonal than an infection but as there are different types of vaginal discharge it is worth to take the time to notice. Abnormal discharge may be yellow or green, chunky in consistency, or have a foul odor. These are usually caused by yeast or bacterial infection. Unless you get a foul or unpleasant odour, colour change or any itching/uncomfortable sensations. Visit your doctor to be checked out ASAP.

Underwear is important but so is none!
They always say 100% cotton is better as it allows you to breathe down there throughout the day by stopping bacteria from becoming trapped but one practice I’ve started to get into is at night, going knicker free, of course you can wear something loose so you’re not just all out there but allowing it to get some air during the night is beneficial. Let everything breathe because even at night we sweat and yeast and bacteria love these dark, damp areas to multiply. Of course this applies to gym & swimwear, change out of them as soon as possible.

Keep the juices flowing.
With water and cranberry juice, I mean. You may have been told cranberry juice (the more organic the better because normally store bought cranberry juice is full of sugar which bacteria loves) is good for UTI’s and some regard it as an old wives’ tale but research has shown that it can help to prevent E. coli bacteria from sticking to cells on urinary tract walls but don’t rely on it as an only source. Water, especially lemon water, helps to restore the body’s pH balance and also helps prevent UTI’s and so does peeing after sex!

What are the best tips for hygiene, that you have?

Feminine Hygiene Tips!

I was notified quite a long while ago that Fragrance Direct are now stocking MAC Cosmetics which gives you a couple of pounds saving - a save is a save right? Popular items are available such as eye pencils, lipsticks, blushers & eyeshadows.

Honeylove Lipstick (£13.99) & Peaches Sheertone Blush (£16.99) are two products that you are likely to find on Fragrance Direct. Honeylove is a light beige toned with rose undertones and a matte finish. Even though this is in the matte finish section it's not as drying as you'd expect some to be. Of course your lips shouldn't be dry or cracked to begin with otherwise no lipstick especially matte isn't going to look good. Peaches is a pure peach blush, no shimmer, no undertones just a straight true to each shade and I find it's buildable on my skin to get the desired look as it goes on a slightly sheer but I find it's a nice subtle colour for a day to day blush.

What's your favourite daily lipstick or blush?

MAC Cosmetics is available at Fragrance Direct

Samples - MAC Cosmetics is no longer cruelty free.

MAC Honeylove Lipstick & Peaches Blush

Summer is nearly over but caring for your body never does and we always need protection. I for one always try and use products with SPF in it somewhere, whether it’s my skincare, makeup or sunscreen but sometimes it doesn't happen and that isn't good. We tend to forget that it’s not just our face or bodies, feet, hands, neck and backs – it all needs coverage to be protected. With two different types of Ultraviolet Rays it’s sensible to look for products that have both coverages if possible. UVA is able to pass through glass and may cause premature aging and wrinkling of the skin. UVB is linked closer to the development of skin cancer and melanoma. UVB radiation causes sunburn but does not penetrate through car windows or other types of glass.

Garnier Ambre Solaire have launched a sensitive advanced range for skin protection with high SPF 50+ & UVA & UVB protection, if you or your children burn quickly due to being fair, sensitive & sun intolerant skin, this range is a must have, you’ll also find a preference with formula between lotion and spray - Garnier Ambre Solaire Sensitive Lotion SPF50+ & Garnier Ambre Solaire Sensitive Advanced Very High SPF 50+. It’s free from perfume, parabens & colourants. It has a Hypoallergenic formula, light texture while being non sticky & whitening, so if you want to wear this under make-up, don’t worry about flashback. I personally have the opposite issue, I find it hard to tan, I might brown a little but nothing major but I also don’t burn so I can’t comment on the range too much on how it performs.

Badger Balm have SPF30 certified organic ingredients within their sunscreen and protection against UVA & UVB, so if organic is more your thing. Badger Sunscreen SPF30 Unscented is organic & vegan and like all of the sunscreen in the range are Nano free. Badger Kid Sunscreen SPF30 Tangerine & Vanilla, with most children loving to be in the water during holiday’s & in local pools…this provides up to 40 minutes’ water resistant coverage for your little ones. Being chemical free it’s 100% safe for them and being that it smells delicious, children won’t hesitate but want to cover themselves in it. We can’t forget the bambinos, Badger Baby is also water resistant and paediatrician tested & approved, it has a slight smell of chamomile & calendula. These all RRP for £14.99 each and can be used for all ages to be honest.

I've mentioned nano free and you might huh? Badger Balm brief this by explaining "Zinc oxide is a powdered mineral that sits on top of the skin, scattering, reflecting, and absorbing UVA & UVB rays. Although zinc oxide is the safest and most effective active sunscreen ingredient, the best protection from the sun is to seek shade and cover up with clothes and a hat. All Badger sunscreens use pharmaceutical grade uncoated Non-Nano Zinc Oxide as their only active ingredient."

Looking for some body odour protection during the long days, during the commute at the gym you can read my posts on Sure Motionsense & Impulse Why Not? by Charli XCX

How good are you with your sunscreen care?


Sun Protection Essentials.

Makeup is there to be experimented with, have a go-to comfort zone style, do as you please attitude. At the end of the day makeup is wiped off, it's nothing permanent. Yes I studied to be a makeup artist & the face is the walking advertisement but I rarely wear makeup, especially if I don't have too but throughout it all nude or bold - lips are mostly my statement piece.

I've been wearing makeup quite frequently, unlike last year where I rarely wore much and did very little FOTD/EOTD's. One brand I've been loving a lot is Makeup Geek, the shadows are pigmented and inexpensive, the fact that there's so many options and also cruelty free & vegan dupes for MAC makes it a go to brand for those on a budget or not fond of non-cruelty free brands. On days when I cannot be bothered to do anything so out there, it's easy to reach for my z palette filled with my makeup geek shadows and I like a highlighter, little bronzer, winged eye and lashes of lipstick. This look was soft but the lips give it that pop of colour for difference instead of a nude.

Get The Look

Illamasqua Matte Primer (Primer)
NIOD Photography Fluid Opacity 12%
LA Girl Pro.Conceal Yellow, Orange(corrector)
EX1 Delete Concealer (under foundation)
EX1 Foundation "F300"
MAC Pro Conceal & Correct Palette "NC40xNC42" (spot concealer)
Guerlain Terracotta 4 Season 02 (bronzer)
Topshop Glow Stick (Highlighter)
MAC Mineralize Skinfinish "Soft & Gentle" (Highlighter)
RCMA No-Color Powder (Setting Powder)

ABH Brow Pomade "Ebony"
GOSH Defining Brow Gel "004"

Benefit Lemon-Aid (base)
Too Faced "Nectar" (lid)
Makeup Geek "Cocoa Bear"(crease)
Makeup Geek "Mocha"(crease)
Too Faced "Puree" (lower lash)
Illamasqua Precision Liner Gel (liner)
Eye Of Horus Liquid Metal Liner - Alchemy Gold* (liner)
Rimmel ScandalEyes "Nude" (waterline)
Benefit They're Real "Black (mascara)
Esqido Mink Lashes "Big City Nights"* (falsies)
Esqido Companion Long Lasting Bond - latex free* (lash glue)

ColourPop Ultra Matte Lip "Trap"

Do you have a go to face?

Some of these products may have been sent to me for review.

FOTD Double Wings

I like to look at this post as it being a tag, so far I've seen 3 other posts doing this Rachel Shuchat Makeup, Beautylymin & The Indigo Hours. The latter of where I decided I'm going to do this. Makes me wonder 10 items? A full face for me sometimes takes a lot more than 10 but multi-purpose products are key. Being on a desert island how would I like my face to look until the end of each product is finished, hmmm well, this list really wasn’t easy.

NIOD photography fluid, Opacity 12% -
That filter blur in a bottle. This can be used alone, with moisturiser, under moisturiser, under foundation, with foundation - you getting it? It's got a beautiful radiance that makes you lit from within, it minimizes lines, helps conceal dark circles and pigmentation, although I don't have any of those severely it's nice to see how something used sparingly can help these issues while wearing make-up. It's got a yellow-red hue corrector by knocking out the red tones in the skin and also minimises yellow tones.

EX1 Invisiwear Foundation -
An oil-free, non-comedogenic liquid foundation has been made with asian and olive tanned women in mind, the range isn't huge but F300 fits me perfectly and I like that it's not heavy and I can apply a little and it's satisfactory enough for me to apply and spread out. It's light and when I set it, there's not much transfer. I use it in most of my make-up look and day to day make-up because it's a good fit with how it adapts to my skin. Note - they're not officially certified.

Colourpop Ultra Matte Liquid Lipstick -
I couldn't think of a shade. Maybe when push comes to shove, I will be able to chose a shade. I like how long these last, how affordable they are and as you know for the past month they've been doing international shipping - whoop. I'm in love with Dr.M which is a green shade but also Chi, Trap and Beeper but there's so many more shades that I would like to try - maybe a red would be my go to shade - you know I love me a prostitute red as I use to call it.

theBalm Mary Lou Manizer Luminizer Highlighter -
Rich in pigmentation and looks beautiful on my skin, I think I could live with strobing over bronzer because if my desert island has sun, I don't have to worry about that part. This is a light-medium, golden champagne, warm undertoned with a pearly sheen highlighter, I like to use this on my nose tip and on top of my cheek bones.

Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Pomade -
All kinds of proof, it was a hard decision because I've switched from pomade to pencil for a more natural look but having the other brow product for a more natural look. I do like how even with this I don't have to use a lot of product and it can be used gently for a natural look that lasts all day.

GOSH Defining Brow Gel - Black -
This has become my HG brow gel, it works better for me than a clear one. It makes my brows thicker and puts them in place, it can be a little wet when first applied and sometimes the tips of my brows end up getting on my forehead but that's a quick clean up and it dries quickly - the bummer, I can't seem to find it to repurchase besides on eBay.

Makeup Geek Eyeshadows Z Palette -
Maybe a slight cheat? But because all my MUG shadows are within the Z palette making it a customised palette - duh! Therefore I can put a range of different shades to do different looks daily. Saves on other palettes where all the colours might not be utilised & end up being wasted, you must of heard about how amazing these shadows are for the price and I 100% agree, they're amazing.

Illamasqua Precision Ink Gel Liner -
This really has become my go to gel liner, I love how black it is, how the gel is smooth and glides effortlessly and it stays for HOURS! What more can a person want when it comes to an eyeliner. It's not smudge proof but that doesn't bother me.

Benefit They’re Real Mascara
I always go back to this mascara. I tried the Too Faced Better Than Sex mascara as a replacement but I found it flaked, smudged when dried leaving raccoon eyes as the day continues and was pretty wet when applying but They're Real from Benefit seems to work exceptionally well for me. It separates, gives good length and my lashes look good without false lashes, win-win!

RCMA NO-Color Powder -
I'm pretty much done with the banana powder hype and this has become my converted setting powder and I couldn't see myself going backwards. There's no flashback best believe no-color means none. It's finely milled which is best as it'll never cake.

What would be your items?

If I Could Only Keep 10 Items of MakeUp.

Dove have released products that are aiming to heal dry skin, keep in mind I do not have dry skin but it can get irritated or dried out if I use certain ingredients, dry skin can be a huge concern as you want to limit dryness as much as possible with whatever you're using. According to Dove, new research has shown that 9 in 10 women are concerned about dry skin and 7 in 10 agree that dry skin impacts their overall confidence. I've been trying three products Dove have released to care for dry skin, Nourishing Care & Oil infused with Moroccan Argan Oil, Nourishing care shower oil with Moroccan Argan Oil & Cream Oil Beauty Cream Bar with Moroccan Argan Oil.

Oil body washes are my favourite because they leave my skin feeling hydrated and soft no matter what and that's what I need. I've tried both in the shower the nourishing care & oil is a cream with hydrating small argan oil balls throughout so when you while the nourishing care shower oil light, non greasy which is important. Amber Rose has said that she's never used nothing but a bar of Dove soap in her skincare routine, I've started to use soaps on the face as long as they're not drying which most can be and the last thing I need is my face stripped of every oil it has but as I have not had an issue it has got me swaying to be a convert, it's handy in the shower to just wash the face using soap that's nearby. I noticed the nourishing care & oil & cream oil have Sodium Cocoyl Glycinate & Sodium Lauryl Isethionate within the ingredients where are SLS alternatives which is probably why these haven't irritated me and would be great for those with dry skin because they won't dry out the skin. Out of all the Dove ranges this scent has to be my favourite.

Purchase: Dove Nourishing Care & Oil Body Wash, Dove Nourishing Care In Shower Argan Oil & Dove Exfoliating Argan Oil Beauty Cream Bar

Do you suffer from dry skin? Have you tried any from this Dove range?


Dove Moroccan Argan Oil Shower Heroes.

I think the stand out product for me this month was the Candy Kittens Sweet Pineapple Vegan Sweets, they're fun in shape, with the kitten head which was launched in June, their first vegan product. Made with tapioca and potato starch, it's damn addictive in taste, sweet and fresh. Doesn't get any better! Landgarten Organic Dark Choco Balls are a snack from the family run business from Austria, they use only organic, fairtrade and GMO free prducts to make their vegan treats. These are puffed millet balls dipped and coated in dark chocolate with a reminiscence of Maltesers. These come in a snack bag and can make good toppings on cake, maybe once we've used the next product to make the cake...
Vegan eggs? Yes they're real. I remember seeing this on TheVeganKind instagram a couple months ago and it's now featured in the August box, it's a plant-based egg replacer, so you can still use egg in any recipeS you may need, baking, scrambled, omelettes, pancakes, cookies, muffins and cakes. I've not tried them as of yet but I'm really interested to see how these Follow Your Heart VeganEgg work within food, they're a costly replacement at £7 for 12 'eggs'. I love the after pepper kick these Hippeas Organic Chickpea Puffs have, I got the Pepper Power in my box & they remind me of wotsits in the puff style. They are a great source of protein & high in fibre making them a good snack. Squirrel Sisters Coconut Cashew Raw Energy Bar, a guilt free bar made with 100% natural ingredients. There's 2 x 20g portions per pack that have 82 calories per bar! Definitely guilt free if you count those calories.
I've used deodorants similar to this before, I believe TheVeganKind even introduced me to them, since then I've even heard of Erykah Badu using them who says the trick is “to stroke under the arm 100 times on each side.” to get them to work effectively. Crystal deodorants are to be used on wet underarms. The Native Unearthed Deodorant I received, is made of potassium alum with Curcuma Longa Root within it, which is great for anti-inflammatory and anti-septic properties. The other type of salt mineral deodorant you can purchase have Ammonium Alum within instead of the Potassium.

Purchase: TheVeganKind


TheVeganKind #34

Growing up as a child, I was obsessed with Egyptology & Greekology. Books upon books I had were on Ancient Egypt. I've still not been able to visit Egypt but it's on the bucket list. The Eye of Horus is an ancient Egyptian symbol of protection, royal power and good health. Eye of Horus is also an Australian brand of colour cosmetics. They have an amazing range of eye makeup based on formulas of the Ancient Egyptians, who are the originators of beauty with the sacred ingredients including organic Moringa Oil “Oil of the Pharaohs”. Last month I featured Moringa Oil on the blog and all it's benefits so imagine that in a eye product. Egyptian God's claimed it had beautifying and regenerating powers and also castor oil which I swear by.
I wanted to do a mild-dramatic makeup look, with the alchemy gold Eye of Horus pen eyeliner, it was only right to do a lot of rich & gold make-up on the eyes. With the non blended highlighter on the brow bone, gold leaf paper, lightened brows with flecks of gold running through them and some budget but full eBay lashes. The Alchemy Gold Liquid Metal has a fine felt tipped point, making it easy to start off with a thin and build up to the desired width. It's a beautiful shade that dries into a metallic shade with vibrancy. I've never come across a shade like it, it'll be nice to explore the others in the collection.

Get The Look

NIOD Photography Fluid Opacity 12% (primer)
LA Girl Pro.Conceal Yellow, Orange(corrector)
EX1 Delete Concealer (under foundation)
EX1 Foundation "F300"
NARS - Laguna (bronzer)
Mehron Mixing Liquid - Gold (Highlighter)
RCMA No-Color Powder (Setting Powder)

Mehron Mixing Liquid - Gold (dots)
ABH Brow Pomade "Ebony"
PUSH Brows Be Wow - Brunette
Billion Dollar Brows - Highlighter

MAC Paint - Bare Canvas (base)
Makeup Geek "Afterglow" (lid)
Makeup Geek "Cocoa Bear"(crease)
Bourjois Liner Pinceau Eyeliner (liner)
Eye Of Horus Liquid Metal Liner - Alchemy Gold* (liner)
Urban Decay's 24/7 Glide-On Eye Pencil "Zero" (waterline)
Makeup Geek - Corrupt (lower lash)
Gold Leaf (inner corner)
Benefit They're Real "Black (mascara)
Unnamed (falsies)
Esqido Companion Long Lasting Bond - latex free* (lash glue)

Lime Crime - Cashmere
Mehron Mixing Liquid - Gold (cupids bow)

Some of these products may have been sent to me for review.

Eye Of Horus Liquid Metal Liner in Alchemy Gold.